Stories I tell my self

We all tell ourselves stories, about who we are, about what we can do, about what we know. But it doesn't just stop there...

In my persuit of trying to figure out who I am, I discovered, that I, like a computer is made out of code. I have an algorithm in my mind where when you input something you get an output. Which make sense, speaking neurobiological wise. We are esssentially computers who can think and feel.

As I try to figure out who I am, I have to do it by the logic and the senses I was given, so I try to. And as I do, I keep running into the same thing over and over again. An infinite spiral with no beginning and end. One leading to another leading to another, leading to another

But they all take different forms. Some like scientists arguing, some like my mom and dad arguing, some like spirals, some like dimensions etc. with all having the same undertone.

In one of my previous posts I talked about a wild theory that came to mind (a wild theory on subconcious) that, well in all honesty, has as much chance of being right as any other theory out there so in a sense it is not special at all. But that theory is a story that I told my self. I made that up for my self.

How?

Well it happens when I keep asking myself questions like, why? how? where? when? what? over and over again. It's like I'm circling the answer (or perhaps what could be the next step in getting to the answer), but like that infinite spiral I can't seem to really get close but at the same time I am. Maybe there is another way to do it, I haven't figured it out yet.

It's as if my mind understand the essence of the equation and it's giving it to me in tangible logics. Metaphors that make sense to me. But the metaphors aren't the real answer. It's a metaphor.

Same thing with reality, we try to make sense of it using logic we're given only for that logic to be a metaphore on how reality actually works.

And it's important noting that some of these metaphores are false, they come from some sort of imaginative thinking, so they aren't exactly close to the answer at all. But how can you tell the difference? one thing you could do is gather all these ideas and look for a common denominator, but keep in mind that it too can be false...

These are the stories I tell myself. The stories that come to be out of nowhere as I try to get closer to "the answer".