Love death and sadness

I feel like this is more of a personal reflection than a traditional philosophical claim, but then again, isn't that how much of social philosophy is perceived? That’s a discussion for another time. So I often think about the meaning of everything, and here I want to talk about something I've felt time and again.

We seem to experience a wide range of emotions anger, sadness, happiness, and so on, but I often feel that they all emerge from a single emotional spectrum, rather than from multiple distinct ones. And by this I do not mean a spectrum that includes all emotions but rather just one emotion that we cannot quite grasp and can only understand in ways of looking at it thorugh other understandable emotions,as if the waves on the surface of the sea are shaped by changes in a single underlying current. This emotional spectrum seems tied to some kind of intensity. We feel something "moving" us, and that sensation travels through layers of thought, eventually becoming what we recognize as a quantifiable emotion

What is "moving," then? The term is meant to indicate something that is emotionally provocative.“However we translate it, it remains one thing that is transformed. But there must be differences in these emotions otherwise, we would not be able to separate them. Another problem left up to quantification, perhaps?

If there is only one thing that changes within us given any situation, why can we separate this into different emotions? One possibility is that what we perceive as different emotions depends on the context to which the emotion applies, and that situation could be based on a complicated thought structure that gives rise to distinctions. When, in fact, there is only one emotion, we might look at it through different lenses and it might appear that we feel different feelings.

The way I understand it, the mind applies the same emotional spectrum across various structures of thought. The final emotional state we experience is a layered result, an outcome of multiple applications of the same underlying emotional spectrum. This would explain why no two emotions are ever exactly the same. Which is true.

Throughout life, we all experience all kinds of different emotions, and we try as hard as we can to make sense of these emotions for ourselves by putting them into categories, but trying to understand anything makes it so that one only understands a part of it and not the whole thing. We might not even realize that our understanding is incomplete, but nonetheless, whenever someone believes they understand a subject, they grasp only a portion of it, not the whole. Which is why we keep chasing knowledge, since if we can understand and truly understand anything completely, there will be no need to go any further, if anything.

But talking about to love, death and sadness, I want to talk a little bit about the aesthetics of these emotions and how they correspond to us as people. Somehow we understand the world in ways that make us wonder why we do anything at all, we ponder about the meaning of life and what purpose we serve by being "here". And if we do not use the idea of faith, there is no meaning that we can come up with as of right now (perhaps we are not advanced enough yet).

Sadness and Love seem to be interconnected enough, where they seem like 2 sides of the same coin, but the idea that death is an emotion seems silly at best. But returning to the idea that every emotion is unique: death seems to provoke a universally resonant feeling, one that compels us to reflect on everything. Though death itself is not an emotion, contemplating death is a way to open ourselves up to a whole range of emotional experiences, as if the idea of death nurtures these emotions within itself. And whilst it is true that this can happen with anything, there is another idea that seems to make death in itself an emotion. The last emotion we have.

What do I mean by this? Well, we can attribute an emotion to anything, as I've talked about before, feelings come before thought, and therefore before we form a thought, we must first get some kind of feeling from something, which must be a unique feeling corresponding to said thing, since otherwise 2 things will truly be the same thing.

Death, on the other hand, can be regarded as such only in the sense that we look at it from the outside. But by itself however, it may be that we experience no death at all, since how can we know there was an ending if we do not know what comes after the ending? There, the idea of death seems very much like an emotion from the individual's perspective, and as with any other emotion, this can be caused by a variety of things.

Perhaps death is the absolute zero intensity of the emotional spectrum, or perhaps it’s the infinite extreme of it, and perhaps there is no difference in both these states, we may never know while we are alive. But we can get a glimpse of it in a personal way since there is not really an effective way to communicate it. Communication requires understanding, but understanding often reduce the depth of an experience. So it must be done by the individual. What you may uncover only you will fully understand, if you must put it to words, however, keep in mind that those words are not exact.

But contemplating death might show you what you truly care about at the end of the day, where your priorities really are. And most people choose love, and it saddens them that they will be gone. But this is important, as it is better to realize it now than later, while you have time to do something about it.

One may choose something other than love, of course, most people also just want to die in peace. Peace with themselves, as they want to die without guilt. But all these concepts Peace, Guilt, Love and Hate all just mean one thing, how does one want to die, truly?